Finding Your Passion

Good morning readers!  Guess what?  It rained like crazy here this morning.  But oddly enough as I was just typing that, it’s gorgeous outside.  No rain, no clouds, lots of sun.  It’s crazy.  Maybe the rain is finally gone, and I can go for a run later.  Here’s hoping.

Breakfast was nice this morning.  Really was craving a honeycrisp apple, but I ate all of them and had to settle for a gala.  Definitely not the same.  I used to love gala apples, but not any more.  They just seem so mushy compared to honeycrisps.  I also made 2 eggs the way I like them: 1 whole egg, 1 egg white, along with my favorite 12 grain bread with butter and cinnamon.

Finding your passion
I’m sure many of you have felt passionless at some point or another.  Whether you are looking for a job, stuck in a job you’re not completely satisfied with, or just feel like you go through each day without much purpose.  I can obviously relate, which is why I decided to address this topic this morning.

It’s difficult coming out of college.  College was a great time for me.  I was studying something that I was passionate in (psychology & dance), was dancing everyday, had a solid group of friends, and an apartment that was gorgeous.  Sure, paying rent was horrible and writing papers wasn’t the ideal way to spend my afternoons, but overall my experience in college was something I would never take back.  

Leaving undergraduate life and going straight to graduate school for something other than psychology was a jump.  I saw a lot of people online that had careers that I wanted.  I loved blogging, social media, and the thought of using the Internet to market products, people, and services.  I applied to graduate school for professional and business communication two weeks before the start of classes.  It was probably the only time in my life I kind of just “went for something,” without giving it a whole lot of thought. 

Now that I am a master’s graduate with two college degrees and one college minor, there are many things I enjoy: psychology, dance, communication.  I may never get a job where I’ll be able to use all three areas of my education, but I do hope that one day I’ll be able to mix psychology and communication in a way that makes me happy.  I can always get a dance job or take dance classes on the side one day, because dance will always be a strong passion of mine.

Finding your passion isn’t easy.   I remember realizing one night before I went away to college that dance was one of my life passions from watching a dance concert on TV.  I hadn’t danced in a while– I took two years off from dancing in high school.  While watching the dance concert on TV that night, I felt a piece of myself missing.  I started crying.  I missed dance and the feeling that it made me feel.  I knew right then and there that I would apply to a school that had a great dance program.  That is what led me to attend my undergraduate university.

I’m sure that I’ll feel passionate about something like that again, but it’s just taking a lot of time.  It is frustrating, upsetting, and stressful to think about having a job that I am not happy with and not going to stimulate my creativity.  My brains a jumbled mess at the moment, as I am sure this post is.  But the one thing  I told myself about writing my blog was that it would be honest.  And this my friends is honesty. 

I was listening to “Suddenly I See” by KT Tunstall on Pandora this morning, and it made me smile.
Hope this enlightens you all as you go on with your day.