non stop rain.

So nothing really has been very exciting the past week. Studying alot for the GREs, and watching some great movies: “THE BREAKUP”. It’s a really great movie. And pretty much almost identical to my life (sans the whole living with the boyfriend thing, thank gosh!) Because that would have been horrible. Bridgett bought some other movies also: “My Best friends girl” & “the women”, which I will devour today sitting on the couch. It’s been raining here alot lately. So what else to do besides cuddling up on the couch with myself watching some great flicks?! It’s been SO dreary here.

At Starbucks again, on Bridgett’s laptop. I really want to be able to save for a laptop of my own right now, but with the credit card debt I am in, and the money I owe my sister, it’s pretty much impossible. In time, in time.. I keep telling myself.

I watched “The Breakup” last night and it was pretty bittersweet. Made me think about my life right now, and how I can’t even be friends with Mike. It hurts at times. Honestly. As much as I tell myself I am complete right now, theres still a piece of me that isn’t full. When you date someone for 3 years, like I did with Mike, its your best friend. Not only did I lose a boyfriend, but a best friend. And after reading the mean things he wrote about me on his facebook, it cut like a knife. I didn’t even read it myself. Bridgett told me one day… “Nic, uhm, I didn’t know if I should tell you this or not, and I wasn’t sure it was about you or not, but I think you should maybe see this”. He was writing mean things about me online. So childish. It hurt alot because the first thing I thought in my head was not ‘OMG WHAT AN JERK’… it was ‘How could someone who told you that they loved you for 3 years, write such hurtful things. Mind it was a stupid comment, it still hurt to realize that he spent the time in writing it and thinking those things. Oh well. In time, maybe can be friends, maybe not. I know that the best things will happen to me. Because good things do happen to good people.