rainy again.

Well kids, its raining again here. And this whole week has been a pretty mellow week for me. Honestly, feeling quite down all week. Not fair. Hung out with Heather last night, which was fun. I decided I should go out for a while instead of sitting in my apartment, watching Sex & the City the Movie, on the couch, and eating ice-cream. We talked about a lot of things yesterday: why am I so bummed out lately- we eventually figured it out- &moving to California next year- which made me very happy. A part of me wishes that I could have moved this summer to California instead of next summer. But I guess, things happen for a reason. I needed to stay here and face reality. I couldn’t just escape like I wanted to. Trust me, all I wished for was to escape. Be anyplace aside from here. I just have to focus on being happy right now, finishing my last year at college, and work on studying to get into graduate school. It’s weird because as much as I am down this week, I can’t cry. It hurts inside, but tears won’t fall. I even get that lump in your throat feeling you get when you’re about to cry, but I just can’t cry.

Tonight: going out to dinner again with Heather. Just to get out of the apartment. was going to go for a de-stressing run this morning, but I woke up to a down-pour. Bridgett is having her not really boyfriend, but dating boy, over tonight. And I would just prefer to be out for a while. lol.

I apologize for the not-very-exciting posts this week. I promise I am working on a great post at the moment!